Every year I cannot wait for the third weekend in July to come around.
Rockfest. Four wonderful days of fun, sun, music and friends.
This year the perfect Rockfest weekend is at stake simply because the owners think they are catering to the youner crowd. It's not that I hate Buck Cherry, Saving Abel or Seether, it's just that I enjoy the older bands that I grew up with and my family loves. I love Aerosmith, The Foo Fighters, Weezer. Why can't we have bands like that?
So because of the list of bands that my family does not know and their friends do not know, it may be just us twenty-somethings going this year. Greatly saddened by the thought of this because those other people make us want to be there.
Perhaps I will not go this year?
Friday, February 27, 2009
Thursday, February 26, 2009
So Now What?
Sometimes life sends us away from where we think we are going. Now and then a bump in the road, a misfortune, a fork, a turn, a lucky streak; no matter how you put it, something leads you in a different direction. Once in a while it is a gut feeling. Sometimes we say it is our heart. Whatever happens, we made a decision or were forced to make a decision and now we are on a different path.
What if we miss that directional change? Is it possible to force yourself to stay on a path that is not intended for you? How certain are our gut instincts? Can we go against the forces of nature?
I don't really know the answer to this. I would like to believe that everything happens for a reason whether it is marriage, divorce, death, a promotion, a move, or a job change. Perhaps it is that large things in life are left to fate but smaller things like how we treat our body, is left to us?
Anyway. I want to know where I am going. I want to know what fate has in store for me. I have changed schools, changed majors, started in art, come back to art and now that I'm graduating in May I am left asking the question again...
Is this where I belong? Is this what I am meant to do? Am I a Graphic Designer, or am I a writer? Career tests tell me that I could be any of these but the number one thing has come out to be a writer.
How do I know which road to take? What are my guts telling me? Where do I go from here? I don't really know. I think it is possible to have frustration and confusion cover up whatever your gut instinct is.
So Now What?
What if we miss that directional change? Is it possible to force yourself to stay on a path that is not intended for you? How certain are our gut instincts? Can we go against the forces of nature?
I don't really know the answer to this. I would like to believe that everything happens for a reason whether it is marriage, divorce, death, a promotion, a move, or a job change. Perhaps it is that large things in life are left to fate but smaller things like how we treat our body, is left to us?
Anyway. I want to know where I am going. I want to know what fate has in store for me. I have changed schools, changed majors, started in art, come back to art and now that I'm graduating in May I am left asking the question again...
Is this where I belong? Is this what I am meant to do? Am I a Graphic Designer, or am I a writer? Career tests tell me that I could be any of these but the number one thing has come out to be a writer.
How do I know which road to take? What are my guts telling me? Where do I go from here? I don't really know. I think it is possible to have frustration and confusion cover up whatever your gut instinct is.
So Now What?
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
Nightmare continued
One of the guys lunged at me in fury and I quickly scooted from his grasp and jumped into the water. As I hit the icey water I noticed we were not alone. Two police officers were coming toward us at a rampant speed. As the officers drew near they swiftly dragged my dripping body onboard. A wave of relief washed over me. The boys were quickly put in check and the officers began to speed away with me in their boat.
The boat however, was not heading toward land. I felt sick to my stomach as I realized each officer was brandishing a silver gleaming knife. They began to advance and without a single word one of them thrust their knife into my shoulder. I recoiled in fear and headed toward the bow of the boat.. I started swinging a bouy in the air just hoping that it would keep them back.
The officers began to throw knives at me. My body was beginning to sting all over and my icey wet clothes were now crimson and warm. I did not know how long I could keep this up for... surely it was the end.
At 4:30am I was violently jolted awake with the feeling of fear and anguish still fresh in my mind. It was a nightmare. A constant repeating nightmare. It happens all of the time. Always with knives. Always with terror.
The boat however, was not heading toward land. I felt sick to my stomach as I realized each officer was brandishing a silver gleaming knife. They began to advance and without a single word one of them thrust their knife into my shoulder. I recoiled in fear and headed toward the bow of the boat.. I started swinging a bouy in the air just hoping that it would keep them back.
The officers began to throw knives at me. My body was beginning to sting all over and my icey wet clothes were now crimson and warm. I did not know how long I could keep this up for... surely it was the end.
At 4:30am I was violently jolted awake with the feeling of fear and anguish still fresh in my mind. It was a nightmare. A constant repeating nightmare. It happens all of the time. Always with knives. Always with terror.
Nightmares
It was a bright sunny afternoon and I was out with a classmate from DCTC. She was informing me on her decision to purchase a piece of land to put her mobile home on. As we pulled up to the site our jaws both dropped. The piece of land so to speak, was barily large enough for a tent, let alone the elephant of a home she had wanted to park there. She turned to me in tears and left the scene immediately.
I did the only thing I could think of. I pitched a tent on the property and staked it as home. As I was inside the tent I noticed the noisy neighbors next door were getting a bit "rowdie" as they used to say on my middle school cheerleading squad.
Suddenly with a jolt i realized I was no longer stationary. In fact I was traveling down a hill straight toward the water. The "rowdie" neighbor boys had hooked my tent and were taking me for a ride.
I quickly crawled from my tent to theirs, which appeared to be on some form of vehicle. I was not welcomed well. They snarled at me and made me feel very uncomfortable and somewhat in danger. As we hit the water I began to see my possibilites of escape were dwindling...
I did the only thing I could think of. I pitched a tent on the property and staked it as home. As I was inside the tent I noticed the noisy neighbors next door were getting a bit "rowdie" as they used to say on my middle school cheerleading squad.
Suddenly with a jolt i realized I was no longer stationary. In fact I was traveling down a hill straight toward the water. The "rowdie" neighbor boys had hooked my tent and were taking me for a ride.
I quickly crawled from my tent to theirs, which appeared to be on some form of vehicle. I was not welcomed well. They snarled at me and made me feel very uncomfortable and somewhat in danger. As we hit the water I began to see my possibilites of escape were dwindling...
Monday, February 23, 2009
Movies, Shows, Books
Just a few of the things I like. Let me know what you think the best shows on tv are, and which ones you feel have "jumped the shark".
My favorite show at this time is Lie to Me. It's new and it's a fun twist on the usual dectective story. If you haven't seen Lie to Me, you can check it out on Fox Wednesdays at 9/8c.
The show stars Tim Roth whom I have loved ever since the movie Four Rooms. Roth's character cannot be fooled, he always knows when people are lying because he can see it in their facial expressions as well as their body language. This makes life for those around him very interesting and a bit complex. I think if I were his daughter I would feel as if I were walking on egg shells constantly.
As far as books go I have been reading books about writing and I am finish The Amber Spyglass which has been a great book. Though it is very religiously controversial, it is a fiction novel so I feel that it's okay to read. This fantasy novel looks at the world and the church and takes a totally different view on everything. The characters are charming and interesting and I cannot wait to see how the book truly ends.
On the movie front I am dying to see a couple of the girly films right now. I have to fulfill a certain yearning inside me to watch the girl's night movies every so often. The movies I want to see right now are Confessions of a Shopaholic, and He's Just Not That Into You, which I believe the later is a couples movie and would go well if you have been with the person for a longer amount of time. How tragic would it be if you were sitting in the movie theatre with your new fling and you realized that he just isn't that into you...
Other movies of interest currently are: Taken, and (as everyone around me rolls their eyes), Fired Up. Yes I said it; you never know it may be funny.. I am hoping for Eurotrip funny but it's more of a teen flick I think so I won't hold my breath.
My favorite show at this time is Lie to Me. It's new and it's a fun twist on the usual dectective story. If you haven't seen Lie to Me, you can check it out on Fox Wednesdays at 9/8c.
The show stars Tim Roth whom I have loved ever since the movie Four Rooms. Roth's character cannot be fooled, he always knows when people are lying because he can see it in their facial expressions as well as their body language. This makes life for those around him very interesting and a bit complex. I think if I were his daughter I would feel as if I were walking on egg shells constantly.
As far as books go I have been reading books about writing and I am finish The Amber Spyglass which has been a great book. Though it is very religiously controversial, it is a fiction novel so I feel that it's okay to read. This fantasy novel looks at the world and the church and takes a totally different view on everything. The characters are charming and interesting and I cannot wait to see how the book truly ends.
On the movie front I am dying to see a couple of the girly films right now. I have to fulfill a certain yearning inside me to watch the girl's night movies every so often. The movies I want to see right now are Confessions of a Shopaholic, and He's Just Not That Into You, which I believe the later is a couples movie and would go well if you have been with the person for a longer amount of time. How tragic would it be if you were sitting in the movie theatre with your new fling and you realized that he just isn't that into you...
Other movies of interest currently are: Taken, and (as everyone around me rolls their eyes), Fired Up. Yes I said it; you never know it may be funny.. I am hoping for Eurotrip funny but it's more of a teen flick I think so I won't hold my breath.
Day One
Today is the beginning of the Tricia's Mark Blog. This blog is for artistic expression. I know it is a bit plain now, but soon enough this blog will be buzzin.
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About Me
- Tricia
- Who am I? I am many things in one; a constantly changing package. I am a friend, a sibling, a daughter, a listener, a learner, a poet, and an artist.